What Is ‘Awakening’?
What is ‘awakening’?
Many times I’ve asked myself this question as I’ve been on my awakening path the last 7+ years. I believe it is our ability to die into ourselves - again and again - to be reborn a new kind of human, a new awareness in this ever changing human form, all while remembering who we are, who we’ve always been beneath the noise of this material realm and matrix programming.
It is definitely a lived experience, but also a process one goes through at a seemingly random yet divinely guided point in their lives. It was a very rare occurrence at one point in the human story, but recently it has begun occurring more frequently, to more and more people from all walks of life and all corners of the globe. Human consciousness is expanding, rising once again from the ashes of ancient cataclysms, Atlantean civilizations and control systems pretending to be for the greater service of all human kind while severely distorting and manipulating perception into tiny boxes of fear, lust, greed and painful conformity. ‘Join or Die.’ ‘Follow the Herd or PERISH.’ Using fear against us. Using our vulnerabilities and weak spots against us. No More.
We are remembering. We are awakening. It is not random.
As we awaken, we begin to speak a similar language – we begin to understand the tools, trades and practices of the ancients, remembering ancestral wisdom encoded within our DNA, unlocked through traversing the inner world and its shadows, weaving through the magic and intricate networks of energy, frequency and vibration that lay within our perceptual fields. We enter a new octave of frequency, one that is felt and often cannot be explained or contained within words and the limitations of language.
How can we tell if we are ‘awakening’?
* If it feels like your entire world is crumbling, yet you’re slightly excited about it, you’re probably awakening.
* If you feel your perception and lived experience has taken a new tone, possibly feeling “trippy” or slightly high while completely sober, maybe even slightly disoriented, ungrounded and confused. This perception shift happens to many, but not all.
* Many who are awakening become increasingly more sensitive to certain foods, especially processed food, fast food, and sweets. Many feel called to change their diet and pursue more cleansing, whole food nutrition, and may be called to research diet and nutrition more thoroughly. You may be drawn away from plastic water bottles and silverware and start opting for “real” objects more, like glassware, sustainable refillable water bottles and silverware.
* Maybe you’re naturally drawn to adopt certain diets at seemingly random times, ones that are completely out of the norm for you and those around you, which may be jarring if you live in closely knit conforming cultures who thrive in consistency and ‘everyone-doing-the-same-thing’-ness. I’ll never forget when my Traditional American Dream family judged me heavily for eating quinoa. And for going vegan for a few years. We could not see eye to eye here when I was guided to make these changes.
* Maybe your psychic abilities are starting to come online — you could be having prophetic or extremely vivid dreams, especially dreams where deceased loved ones come to visit you or communicate messages to you, or dreams that come true in a matter of days, weeks or hours. Insane, spiritually significant deja vu experiences. Feelings of being somewhere new before, or vividly remembering an occurrence happening days prior in a dream.
* You could be drawn away from more chaotic, over stimulating environments, preferring more alone time and doing things you really feel passionate about. You may be drawn away from particular friend groups, social circles and gatherings that no longer support who you are now, and who you are becoming. This can be incredibly confusing, especially as many of your friends stay the same as you are changing. Not everyone is ascending with you, or at least in the same timing as you. Trust that everyone is on their own journey, learning their own lessons at the times that are right for them. No one path is correct, and there are many ways to reach the same destination. And some are choosing not to awaken in this lifetime – that is ok, we must have respect for all beings on all paths and frequencies.
There are many gradual stages of awakening.
Like a spiral moving upward, we often come back around to the same truths, experiences and ‘up-levelings’ again and again, rising more and more each time, balancing out as we go.
Sometimes all these things can start happening at once, some in increments, some over long stretches of time, some things will not happen at all. Many people begin with dietary sensitivities and changes in social behavior, but many also can have their psychic abilities spontaneously activated in a random moment (like me lol) or during a psychedelic trip (also me lol). There really is no one size fits all path or guide to modern awakening – but there are many clues, tips and commonalities that many people experience throughout what we call the “awakening journey” or spiritual awakening path. And many of these commonalities, before we realize we are not alone going through them, can be quite scary, provoking or intimidating to the ego mind and survival based responses within the animalistic nature of the human body.
But when we realize we are not alone, that these seemingly scary life shifts and happenings are ‘normal’ to some degree, we can ease up on our need to control life or avoid what is happening to us, realizing it is actually happening FOR US and that there is nothing really “against us” in this universe or realm we call “the human experience on planet Earth.”
Earth is a benevolent place, filled with light, love and laughter… but it is also a hellish realm, riddled with fear, ego and evil masking as your greatest friend, or adversary. Its a confusing place, and a confusing time to be alive… but there is no better time to awaken, to remember the Truth (with a capital T) of who we are and why we came here in the first place.
hint: if you’re reading this far, you probably didn’t come here just to eat Doritos on the couch while you watch tv, dread going back to your 9-5 working for the shitty boss you hate, while contemplating how the fuck you got here and why your tv is giving you ads for the thing you were just talking about an hour ago.
Life is trippy. Being human is REALLY WEIRD. But what if thats okay?
What if we made the strangeness, unpredictibility and impermanence of life okay? Like, what if we chose not to give a fuck about the things we can’t control, and instead focus on optimizing every moment with love and enjoyment?
What if life gets to be fun, instead of an endless pit of despair, a trap for your soul keeping you in misery and obligation?
What if?
Awakening calls for us to dream a new dream. To see a new story play out for humanity. And to step away from the old world ship that is sinking, slowly but surely, and trying to drag us down with it.
Don’t go down with the sinking ship. Lean into the SHIFT. Let your mind wander, instead of bitching and moaning about how life is stacked against you and you’re so miserable because you feel so scared to do what you actually want to do in life.
It’s not simple, but at the same time it really is… don’t throw the baby out with the bath water. Yes its time to step away from the Matrix and the old world, but don’t forget it’s what has kept you alive all this time, up until now. Don’t forget where you came from, and have compassion for those who are a little slow to the awakening game, or who are choosing not to awaken at all in this lifetime.
And most importantly — remember who YOU are. The real you. The childlike you who knew who they wanted to be, before they were told who to be by a dying world, who would do anything in its power for you to forget this vital knowledge of self in pursuit of artificial passion.
I’m sending you so much love — happy awakening:)
Namaste,
Sara Murray
ancientesoterica@gmail.com
