welcome to scorpio season 2025… enter the underworld with grace in your step & love in your heart
we are collectively Shifting from Libra to Scorpio Szn - The Destined Descent into Darkness & reconnection with Spirit, after deepening our connection with the people & energies who mean the most…
You may be wondering… Reconnection with spirit?! Destined descent into the darkness?! WTF DO YOU MEAN?! Scorpio Season may seem like it is as FAR FROM Spirit as you can get, with such focus on darkness, spooky things, demonic energies (most of our common Halloween costumes are representations of demonic energy), distortions and chaos… the days are shorter and darker in the Northern Hemisphere, the cold winter months are approaching quickly, we’re approaching the dreaded holiday season in America… so how tf are we reconnecting with Spirit?!?!?! Let me explain…
Scorpio as an energy and divine archetype holds the essences of intense passion, deep emotional waters and the darker elements of life, in addition to the archetypal energies of death, rebirth and transformation, as symbolized by Pluto - Scorpio’s ruling planet. You can check out one of my most recent articles about Pluto’s energies if you fell called to go deeper there. Anyway, in my opinion, Scorpio is the sign that calls you back to Spirit - it reconnects you with the divinity of life and the divine spark of energy that moves through all of us, triggering our emotional reactions that fill the deep well of emotional waters we all carry within our energetic auric field. Scorpio often “scares the shit out of you” for good reason - to bring you back into embodied awareness, full presence and the present moment.
When we are scared, either by something outside of us or something our mind is perceiving, we tend to become fully present and hyper aware of the moment… this is one of the gifts latent within the Scorpio archetype. It scares you, triggers you, makes you VERY uncomfortable… but for a good reason because oftentimes that is the only way to get your attention and bring your awareness to the present!!! And, many times we need to be uncomfortable before we have the will to change, as many of us do not make some of the changes we are being asked to make out of comfort, desire for control or fear. So, Scorpio grabs your hand, brings you FACE TO FACE with that fear, challenge, discomfort, whatever, so as to teach you lessons and bring your power back to you. Fear often externalizes our power and takes it out of our hands; Scorpio empowers you with its intensity, spookiness and surprise challenges, while revealing the hidden illusions, pain points or triggers behind the fear response or trigger that was taking your power away.
Scorpio reveals all the hidden illusions, trauma responses, limiting beliefs and negative perceptions latent within our consciousness. It brings us right to the door of our biggest fears, the things we keep avoiding, denying or sweeping under the rug, all to help us journey back to ourselves and Spirit. After the lessons, connections and harmonizing of Libra season (which, in 2025 FELT as intense as a Scorpio season) we are ready to do the work to bring more harmony within ourselves… maybe the last couple of months have taught us where our fears, false beliefs, insecurities, negative energies and unintegrated parts of self are holding us back and keeping us stuck, and Scorpio is bringing us right down to the root of these things, all to help us become more whole, complete and integrated within the darkness and light aspects within ourselves. We are meant to be equal balanced dark and light while in human form; the darkness of our soul isolated in a dense physical form, balanced with the light and awareness of that soul, the infinite consciousness and divine spark within us that holds the inherent memory that this is all temporary and for the purpose of our soul’s evolution.
I actually began this article a few weeks ago, as we made the shift from Libra to Scorpio season on 10/22… the guidance that was coming through even before this shift began was that we are being asked to get comfortable with the darker polarity of life, and embrace the necessary descent into the darker elements of life and the collective human experience, so as to bring wholeness and balance to the dark and light within. This often begins in the mind; we have to mentally decide to turn towards the light, to stop fighting, stop striving and step out of the darkness of ignorance, chaos and physicality, in order to recommit ourselves to the light of Spirit. Basically, what this means in the lived human experience is that we have to “give up the fight” of the lower ego mind to have control and certainty, and surrender the control of that lower self to the insight, wisdom and guidance of the higher self… and we do that when we give up the fight to be right, to have it all figured out or do it all ourselves, when we surrender control and leave it all in God’s hands (or Spirit, Source Consciousness, All-That-Is).
Scorpio is a very “mind” based zodiac sign and archetype, despite being a water sign and holding deep emotional reservoirs, mainly because these frightening, fearful, intense and dark energies related to Scorpio have their roots in the mind. The mind is what fears, rejects, denies or creates distortions that the body and awareness respond to. Sounds trippy, I know, but I do believe the mind (or ego mind) is the source of much of our pain, suffering, fears, insecurities and distortions of life, because it is the only aspect of our consciousness that is totally disconnected from Spirit and “in the dark”… it is the aspect of us that perceives separation and is constantly looping in feedback from the environment, psyche or subconscious mind. They say suffering begins and ends in the mind, and I believe this to be true.
Scorpio is here to call us back to spirit…
We often don’t realize how disconnected we are, from ourselves and from Spirit, until we reconnect and our awareness is fully restored. It’s like in our lives when we don’t realize how much we needed something until it is gone, or when we aren’t aware of how much we were struggling until we get to the other side of a challenge. Hindsight is a key aspect of integration and expanding our consciousness, because it helps us witness how far we have come, how much we have grown and helps us see “damn I didn’t know I needed that until it happened”. So, Scorpio is bringing us into these underworldly energies, fears, existential crises, challenges, all the things, so as to inspire our growth, expansion and reconnection with Spirit. In falling into the underworld, we are able to intentionally turn back towards the light, reaching for heightened states of awareness and more integrated states of being.
Through the darkness, we are able to see the light of our own awareness more clearly; we are able to see our gifts and capabilities more clearly when we are isolated from them, and we can see where we let fear, control or distortions of the mind take us further into the dark instead of into an integrated dark and light.
Personal Themes being spotlighted for me this week -
The following are some of the personal wounds, shadows and blindspots that have been coming into the light of my awareness this week:
“I didn’t ask for this” - in 2o17 I was in a motorcycle crash that severely burned and distorted my physical body, leaving me partially physically disabled and navigating an entirely different body than the one I was born into. This has proven to be challenging for me as I have navigated being seen, dating, and interacting with the general public. People typically receive me, my scars and disabilities well at the current stage of my life, but this wasn’t always the case… and my residual grief, fears and anger because “I didn’t ask for this” has been coming up to the surface, causing me to hate myself and loop in negative thoughts about my appearance and how it affects and is received by others. This theme also causes me to also reject and lack acceptance of things as they are, like a hammer seeking a nail always finding something negative or wrong about life and the world around me.
I find it very hard to slow down, enjoy the process and “smell the roses”. My entire life I have been very goal oriented, purpose and accomplishment driven… but at this time I am realizing this innate drive has made it borderline impossible to slow down and actually enjoy the pleasures of life. I have been too focused on striving, accomplishing and “getting there”, that I don’t actually enjoy the small moments of the journey.
I have a “grass is always greener” perspective that makes it very hard for me to commit to things, and even harder to enter into the essences of devotion in any area of my life. I find myself constantly in indecision, unable to choose and way too focused on avoiding making the wrong choice. I am so hyper focused on avoiding punishment for choosing wrong or being wrong, that I have a very hard time choosing anything, let alone what my mind or body perceives as “right”. This black and white thinking, and fear of being wrong or being seen as wrong, makes it very hard for me to commit to my decisions, or commit to the people, projects and things in my life that are in need of my devotion.
I have major control issues, which stems from life feeling so “out of control”, dangerous, unloving and uncertain. I am leaning into acceptance of the uncertainty of life, which I have been doing by slowing down into stillness and presence to really enjoy whatever is in front of me; a full circle moment back to the second bullet point here! It’s all connected, as all things are lol. By surrendering and being more present, instead of running through life and focusing on goals, accomplishments and getting to the next thing, I have actually leaned into the spontaneity and uncertainty of life, which has been very healing for me, and I have realized releasing control just means surrendering to the moment without needing to change anything or get anything as a result. Just being with it all, in presence and without judgement.
All these themes have been triggered and coming up into the light of my awareness this week through challenging circumstances, intense physical body discomfort, and feelings of grief, despair and indifference that have been really frightening to navigate. Being indifferent is something I am not used to at all, and it has been washing over me the past couple months, especially in recent weeks. It has caused me to lack drive towards my purpose, towards creating, and towards sustaining my relationships and personal connections. I have quite literally not gave a fuck about anything recently, which has never happened to me before. But - this indifference and shadow energy has actually revealed to me how focused on striving, accomplishing, meeting standards and reaching goals I have been.
I have been so focused on accomplishing the next thing, setting and meeting goals that I have been unable to actually slow down and enjoy life, and has completely burned me out, resulting in these feelings of indifference and lack of care in my life. It’s so cool how all these themes I have been navigating are connected, even though they seem like separate issues they all connect and contribute to the same essences of darkness and distortion in my life.
So, as I have been navigating the grief, indifference and anger that has been arising in my being, and doing the work to recognize the contributing themes and energies creating these challenges, I have really entered into a newfound state of consciousness and presence that is impacting my entire life - my manifestations, the way I show up in life, the way I speak and connect with my work. It is almost as if through the darkness - through these challenges and pains - I rediscovered my light, and was able to consciously move towards it at this time.
My boyfriend Scotty is the one who helped me realize these deeper truths and underlying energies this week. Through a series of “hissy fits” (lol), deep spells of grief, despair and indifference, and things in my psyche really running the show in a negative way, I was able to start sharing what I was experiencing and going through with my boyfriend, and he quite literally channeled some potent wisdom codes that in an instant (or, 2 instances, because it was 2 statements and “wisdom codes” that he shared) helped me see my blindspots, how I was contributing to them and how they were creating the dilemmas, challenges and suffering in my life and reality.
The first thing he shared was from a video he saw on YouTube, that was actually talking about the video game “Red Dead Redemption 2”. He said the video talked about how many people did not like the game because it focused on such simple, mundane tasks and involves a lot of easy side quests, or something like that. The main insight I got out of this share was the fact that many people, including me, have a hard time interacting with the mundane aspects of life, and taking part in life’s simple pleasures. Maybe my struggle was not because I lacked goals or direction (although with some reflecting, this was definitely a part of the inner turmoil I felt all last week leading up to Halloween) but maybe my struggle was the fact that I have a hard time enjoying the simple, mundane parts of life?
This instantly sparked clarity and a new way of seeing things for me; a total upgrade in my consciousness. I was able to see where my blindspots were operating and running the show, and how they were contributing to the suffering I felt so weighed down and confused by. I was literally saying to Scott “I don’t understand why I feel like this” and apologizing over and over for my negativity… it was then that he shared the wisdom codes from the video he was watching, which spoke directly to my soul and the wounds running the show behind the scenes. I was able to realize that I am unable to slow down and enjoy the process, and to find joy and presence in the small mundane moments of life. I had these beliefs or inner mechanisms that forced me to NEED something to focus on, work and strive towards… but this was breeding an inability to actually enjoy life, to slow down and smell the roses, and make the most of my time on Earth. I was very much running through life, focused only on attaining the next goal, meeting the standards of my mind and judging the quality of my life by my accomplishments.
And although I realized it was time to step away from running through life and focusing only on accomplishment, I also realized I lack direction at this point in my life. So much is changing, and with all this sudden and destined change comes a need to refocus my vision on new paths, new opportunities and new dreams. As one chapter of life ends, I am shifting my gaze towards this new chapter while slowing down, being really patient and enjoying the time I have on Earth.
The video that Scott was watching mentioned how we spend so much time preoccupied with accomplishing things or crushing goals, but when we get to the end of our life we cannot take those accomplishments with us… all we have left is the feelings and memories of what we experienced, and at the end of the day these are all that really matters, not money, not fame, not success or material assets. Memories, and how we felt within those memories, are all that withstand the tests of time and all we take with us when we leave this life.
This all really spoke to me, and taught me the importance of surrender and learning to be truly present with all of life’s happenings and events. It helped me see WHY I was suffering so much, and HOW my mind and negative programming was contributing to that suffering, keeping me locked in a hamster wheel I desperately wanted to get off. Because I could not allow myself to enjoy the little moments of life, or to even participate in them, I was burning out and suffering bad, because my mind was rooted in such fear, anxiety, control and hyper activity. My mind could not allow me to actually enjoy the mundane moments of life because I HAD TO keep striving, setting goals and accomplishing them… or else.
“Or else what?” I began to ask myself… and I realized that the fears and programming that was instilled within me in school, in my family unit growing up and in my entrepreneurial friendship circles were creating this negative cycle. In school and in modern American society, we are literally programmed for productivity and taught that hustle culture, constant striving, crushing goals and making big accomplishments should be our true north in life, and if it isn’t then we are worthless, undesirable, and most of all… lazy. I was so afraid of being seen as WRONG and LAZY if I was not constantly producing something or striving towards accomplishments, so my mind created this underlying program that I HAVE TO be producing something to be worthy and accepted. I believed I had to have something to work towards, something to focus on, or else.
The past couple of weeks I noticed how my mind was so focused on this external output, productivity, external validation and the need to work towards something, but because it was normalized in my psyche I did not see anything wrong with it. I saw my boyfriend as the problem, because he was just slowing down and enjoying what he can in life instead of excessively worrying and working like I was. I deemed him “wrong” for this, and spiraled into so much judgement and disconnection because of it. I was demonizing him for not working towards anything big right now or having huge goals, and this was happening as I myself felt this pull away from productivity and into pure presence, which scared the heck out of me. This is how Scorpio energies work there magic though - through scaring us into surrender, reconnection with Spirit and seeing things in a new light.
I could not see how I was actually the one “in the wrong” because of my self-imposed righteousness and beliefs that productivity is the only way to be loved or “good”, so I kept projecting it onto my boyfriend and immediate environment, complaining about how we are “going nowhere” and “have nothing to work towards”, resulting in my feeling lost, confused, disconnected and indifferent.
The real dilemma was not the one my mind was creating however - it was my inability to slow down, enjoy life’s little mundane moments, and create a life of pure presence, not striving, accomplishing or trying to become immortal through my impact. This reminded me of a character named “Monty” from a show my boyfriend and I have been watching called “Land Man” - spoiler alert, in the last episode of the season Monty passes away from his 6th heart attack I believe. Monty was the CEO of a oil company, and at the end of the season another character said to Monty’s wife that he was trying to hard to be immortal through building a company that had massive impact, massive wealth accumulation and one that would be remembered, that he never actually enjoyed life or time with his kids. Monty was so obsessed with his legacy and leaving behind massive impact, that he stressed himself out to the point of no return… death. This revealed deeper implications to my striving, need for accomplishment and inability to slow down and enjoy life… it revealed this deeper need to be important, remembered, and to be immortal.
The need to write the best book, to be the most liked, to never be forgotten… these are very primal urges that operate behind the scenes of our psyche, often driving us into unnecessary productivity and striving for things that won’t really matter in the long run. Sure having a football field named after us seems appealing to the ego; but if all we did is stress, fight and claw our way there, we have nothing but agony and stress to show for it in the end. Monty so desperately wanted to be important, to produce the best results, the highest numbers, and to be remembered… and all that got him was an early death, less time with his family and a great disconnection from his kids… all stemming from heart based wounds that are created by this constant striving and need to be immortalized at any cost. We become so focused on our productivity and accomplishments, we never actually live or enjoy what we have created… its just on to the next thing, and the next thing.
As this revelation dawned within my consciousness, it became so overwhelmingly clear that this was contributing to my suffering and was why I felt so lost. I was severely disconnected from my soul in these mundane moments, due to the fear and negative programming that stepped in when things quieted down and got slow. I didn’t know how to enjoy the subtle moments, or allow myself to participate in them, due to this fear response. It took 3/4 years of my relationship with my boyfriend to actually participate in a board game or card game, because my mind would just overshadow the situation and say “ I don’t like games” or “whats the point?” because there was no perceived productivity or accomplishment to be made by playing the game. You just play the game to enjoy it… not to win, produce or accomplish anything. My mind and operating systems didn’t get that. I always thought this was because of my seriousness and conscious approach to life… that I was “too aware” to participate in these “baby games”… but actually, it was the distortions in my consciousness and the programming given to me by the external world that drove me to need to be productive in whatever I do. These false programs taught me that slowing down and doing things just for the enjoyment of the moment was “wrong”, “for babies” or for stupid people.
As all of this dawned within my awareness I was able to see that my issue was not this sudden lack of goals, focus or drive… it was that I was approaching life in ways that were not serving me, which was contributing to the excessive focus on doing things right, being right and being seen as “good”. These are the shadows I am integrating at this time, and it is teaching me SO MUCH about myself, about life and human consciousness as it operates within the collective experience. We really are our own worst enemies sometimes… and often the “problems” or “issues” we are perceiving outside of us are actually distortions within our own consciousness, coming from negative operating programs that are causing us to act in negative ways without fully realizing.
It becomes even more challenging when we recognize how much we have normalized these distorted, negative ways of being and operating… I mean, our entire American culture is built on avoidance of being lazy, the need to be productive and to be right. These underlying drives are running the show for so many of us… and we often don’t realize it until its too late, like our friend Monty from the show Land Man. The more we can become aware of these blindspots, reconnect with Spirit and realize what really matters in life… the more we can really “do the human experience right”, which really just means fucking slow down, smell the god damn roses, and chill the heck out for a second. There is no “right” or “wrong” way to do this human thing… as these perceptions and judgements only exist in the mind. All we have to do is… do the thing! Show up! Smell the fucking roses! Live - and BE ALIVE in all the moments, even the most “boring”.
This is why I often look at life from the perspective of death - something very Scorpio vibes - because it helps me see what really matters and what is really worth my time, focus and energy. Will this thing I’m fixating on, striving towards or worrying over really matter after my death, after my soul leaves this body?
11/4/25 additions…
Well, let me tell you folks, a lot has shifted since I began working on this article just before Halloween. And in really taking the time to sit with all the energies and emotions moving through me, to contemplate the wisdom codes being ushered into my field, and to look at my life currently from the perspective of death, as if I had just died, I realized a lot and went through a massive personal shift.
Halloween night was absolutely magical, powerful, spiritual and out of this world. I won’t go into details, but a series of events happened that were a complete pattern interrupt and shifted my perspective instantly. Through realizing my life currently is not really fulfilling me for one reason or another, and through having a totally different experience than I am used to, I realized it is time for some massive change. Like, its time to burn my life to the ground and start fresh, kinda change… and this is spooky, yet so exciting at the same time.
Through this reflection and contemplation the few days before Halloween, I realized how unhappy and directionless I really am at this time, and made a conscious shift within myself to start rebuilding my life, to daydream about new possibilities, and to start to enter into a season of life that promises massive change. I am finally so tired of comfort, settling and routine, that I am willing to do whatever I can to anchor change and new growth in all areas of my life, especially the life areas I have been clinging to and resisting change. So, when Halloween came and introduced this pattern interrupt and up-level to me, it was almost like I was ready… and like I was being prepared all last week, and the weeks before, as I entered into my own personal shadows and darkness. I feel myself coming back into the light now, and this light will carry me through all the perceived challenges that lay ahead of me.
Trust the road you are on until you feel it is time to step off. For years I have contemplated drastically changing my path, but it was never the right time. Now I feel ready, willing and able to step off the beaten path I have become so attached and accustomed to, and to step into the unknown. Because I do not know what this next chapter of life has in store for me. I do not have much certainty as to who I will spend most of my time around and who will be key players in the next chapter of my life story. But I do know that I am letting my heart guide and my wisdom strengthen me, because I have been through far too much just to settle into comfort and complacency. I am ready to reclaim my love for adventure, my love for exploring the far reaches of the universe, and my love for mystical, magical, spiritual experiences that I have felt so lacking in recently.
I am so excited for what lays ahead. So much is in store for us all… and all we have to do is be patient, hold our authentic frame of reality, do the inner work (traversing the underworld and the shadowy energies within, as mentioned in the beginning) and just do the best we can to make it through whatever the universe has in store for us. We live in such a loving, compassionate, intelligent universe… so no suffering comes without purpose. We do not suffer and dive into the darkness to stay there forever… all suffering comes with valuable lessons, pattern interrupts and revelations, that are meant to guide us back into the light again. I have seen this to be overwhelmingly true over the last couple weeks.
If you find you are still in the trenches, still feeling stuck, lost or defeated by shadows or the darkness of the underworld, please reach out to me for support and guidance!! I offer psychic tarot readings, spiritual mentorship calls, Akashic Records readings and more… you can view them all in the offerings tab! No pressure, just wanted to extend my hand if you are in need of some help at this time.
I am sending you guys so much love… I know this energy update was a little all over the place, but I hope it serves you in whatever way it needs to! And I hope you enjoyed my lil personal shares, I have found that in hearing what others are going through I can learn something about myself and my own situation, and I hope this was the case for you as well.
Happy deep diving into the underworld!!!!
Much Love & Namaste,
Sara
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