End of 2025 - Energy Update
The following is an energy update that I began writing a few weeks ago on the New Moon in Sagittarius. I was unable to finish it, but even that proved to be in divine timing, which is a huge theme of this entire article AND it feels like it is a prominent universal theme for much of humanity at this time. This element of divine timing, and even time itself, is weaving itself through all of our life events and the happenings surrounding us on the Earth plane now, in the ending days of 2025, and in the weeks and months to come as we begin 2026.
We talk about all the endings and new beginnings surrounding us at this time, and many of the themes I have been picking up on as one chapter of Earth Life ends and another begins… and as a universal 9 year ends, (2025: 2+0+2+5= 9) and a universal 1 year begins (2026: 2+0+2+6= 10; 1+0= 1) we are closing out major karmic patterns and chapters of life while leaving behind identities that have served us well but will take us no further on our journey. It’s a time to let go, to clear space and clean house as we wipe our slates clean and prepare for rebirth.
Take what resonates, and leave the rest alone… let’s dive into the energetics and themes of the end of 2025!!
Chapter 1: December 19th, 2025 - New Moon in Sagittarius
Today is the New Moon in Sagittarius, but thats not all that is prominent in the skies right now… December 19th is also the day that interstellar object 3i Atlas flies closest to Earth, and then over the weekend we have the Winter Solstice as well… and beyond these tangible events, a lot is shifting energetically and behind the scenes for us all. We are wrapping up a numerological 9 year - with 9’s symbolizing endings, culminations and final chapters, and with the natural end of the year approaching in a little under 2 weeks (this was written on 12/19), a lot of energetic themes, chapters of our lives and usual dynamics we have grown familiar with, are completing their cycles and ending right now. This can be REALLY uncomfortable, sad, anxiety inducing and often terrifying to our egoic awareness, where much of our focus is placed as we are incarnated in human form and going about our day to day activities… so please remember to have grace and patience with yourself. Moving slowly, carefully and in honor of the sensitive nature of your being will save you from more grief, pain, frustrations or anxiety moving forward.
Syncing with the organic flow of energy moving through you is the best thing one can do right now - and this requires heavy discernment, intuitive openness and deep listening, as what suits one individual being right now may not suit another.
The energy right now on planet Earth is potent, powerful and persistent in helping us to know, and to truly live embodied within, our higher nature. We are being reminded of who we are when we are our healthiest, strongest, clearest, wisest… we are remembering who we once were, before life got so dark, heavy and painful. Many call this “connecting with the inner child,” but beyond this it means honoring the spark of life, of divinity, of soul sovereignty and individuality within… the part of us that is unable to be tarnished by life, its darkness and the heavy chaotic happenings of Earth life.
The soul self is like a multidimensional jewel, a diamond always present within that is just further refined and beautified through pressure and darkness. We often think that darkness tarnishes us, blemishes us, taints us, destroys us… but the current energy is painting a new picture. It is reminding us that “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”... that it is the very darkness we face that reveals the light within, that cultivates that inner light and allows it to be seen and shown outwardly.
They say without the darkness one could not know the light… and vice versa, we could not know the darkness without experiencing light. We exist in a realm of duality and polarity, all in right relationship, alignment and reason. If we truly wanted to experience love and light all the time, we wouldn’t be here… trust me. We would remain engulfed in the light of source, completely imbued and experiencing this light throughout every ounce of our being. But no, that gets boring after a while… from the perspective of the soul, we actually choose suffering, hardships and challenges because they help us know ourselves better. How many times have we faced a challenge or painful experience, and said to ourselves “damn I needed that” on the other side of it all? You don’t know your true strength until you are faced with a challenge that forces you to wield it to the best of your ability. You don’t know how much you can handle, or what you are capable of, until you are tested and are able to bring that inner essence, divine spark and soul sovereignty out into the physical world of experience and living.
This is why I mention the necessity and divine purpose of the darkness; it is not in existence only to cause harm and torment us for no reason, although at times it can seem that way. I believe we live in a realm that is imbued with and governed by an intelligent, multidimensional, unconditionally loving energy that we call “God, Source, Spirit, Creator”... and only when we forget this truth can the darkness torment us and needlessly cause us suffering, which is actually all in divine purpose anyway… we suffer so we can remember… so can we start to zoom out, shift our perspective, and witness the sacredness, the divine purpose and necessity of whatever darkness is surrounding you, troubling you, or fucking with you in your life right now. You are not worthy of a shitty life… but at the same time, maybe Spirit brought you shitty life circumstances so you would actually see your worth, reclaim your power and remember you can do something to change your life? Maybe you had to get so uncomfortable, so you would actually make the changes you are capable of and desiring to make, perhaps letting yourself be held back by fear or limiting beliefs for too long?
Anyway, back to the energy of December 19th and of the coming weeks…
The end of December has been spotlighted by my intuition since September 2025, and even since last Spring, promising for “big” energy and potent, destined and divinely guided life experiences. Spirit always spotlights a particular period of time or date for a reason - these predictions aren’t just distractions or hypotheticals, they often drop into my awareness out of nowhere and act as a highlighter, bringing our awareness to significant energies moving through the collective and times that this higher intelligence wants us to be aware of and ready for.
Specifically the date December 19th has been highlighted since the fall months, and here we are 3 months later really experiencing this potent energy, and really truly “in it” as my friend Natalia and I always say.
But what if this darkness, all these challenges, potential adversaries and hurdles on our path, are here right on time? For good reason?
What if - as we approach the darkest day of the year for us in the northern lands on the Solstice - these fears, this grief we are feeling, the hesitance to move forward, and resistance to what appears dark and uncertain, is meant to invite us into the openness of the heart of the Creator, inviting us to surrender a little deeper, to feel a little more, to try a little harder… and prove to ourselves, not to others, that we are worthy and capable of living a good, light filled life? To remind ourselves - THIS is what it’s all about, this life thing, THIS is what really matters, what really inspires, what really lights me up from the inside out, and maybe I am worthy and deserving of more of the good stuff? The things that are closest to our heart, and most authentic to that divine spark within, feel good for a reason… just like things feel like shit for a reason too.
The feelings, sensations, thoughts, desires and actions of this realm have more purpose and meaning in our overall lives than we’ve been told for generations. I mean, there are still people out there who claim anxiety doesn’t exist… so there’s that, but have grace with even these people because they too are finding their way back home, back to Spirit, Source, God… we’re all walking each other home. We’re all in this together!! (cue high school musical :p)
So whatever you are feeling, whatever is moving through your being right here, right now, whatever is troubling or challenging you, and whatever is inspiring you, filling you with joy and sparking love in your heart center… it’s there for a reason, and it’s inviting you into deeper connection and relation with yourself.
From what I have learned in my 29 years of life, and especially as I have been writing my first book Remember over the past year and 3 months, the things we are attracted to, or in resistance to, are very intimately connected to our purpose, our soul self and our authentic nature. These things act as guide posts, bringing us closer OR further apart from our authentic soul blueprint and Spirit. Our actions resonate on a spectrum, moving from fear to love… we can take action out of fear, moving away from our Source and authenticity OR we can move with love, trust and devotion… the choice is up to us each and every day, in every step we take. The actions we take right now, in this energetic window we are in for the last 2 weeks of 2025, hold strong resonance and alignment with Spirit and our higher nature, if we will allow them to.
Many of us are still wading through the weeds and the mud of a dark night of the soul phase of our journey, and some of us are starting to come out of this energy, starting to see the divine purpose in all the suffering we may have faced over the past months, years, maybe even lifetimes… we will see mass waves of spiritual awakening throughout 2026, and for many this is beginning right now with this New Moon in Sagittarius and 3i Atlas fly by, further initiated by the Solstice energies and holidays next week.
Some of us may feel we just went through hell and lived to tell the tale…
And some of us may feel we are beginning a big, destined journey… one planned before this lifetime, seeded in the awareness of our soul and pulling us towards something.
Some of us may feel we are beginning a second spiritual awakening, opening to our multidimensionality, psychic abilities and heightened awareness in completely new ways at this time, truly experiencing the interconnectedness and magic of this realm when we are tuned into Source energy and the light of Spirit. This can be disorienting to people who have been locked in 5 sense matrix reality their entire lives… but as humans move through the waves of fear, change and turmoil before us all at this time, clarity will begin to dawn, especially as we start to turn towards a higher power beyond our egos and physical senses.
This ending and new beginning cycle, initiated by the New Moon in Sagittarius and the balancing energies of the Solstice, instills a desire to begin again, end things well, and really let things go in a major way right now… its time for us to fly, to spread our wings and leave the nest, entering completely new territory and realizing its time to say goodbye in more ways than one. But goodbye doesn’t have to be a permanent letting go forever… it can represent a change in form, in identity, in being, that more accurately reflects who we are and who we’ve become over the years.
These “goodbyes” and letting go’s can usher in the person we have been working so hard to become… anchored through the revealing of new boundaries, what we will and will not tolerate, how we show up in the world and the stories we tell. These stories will prove to be more and more relevant and important over the coming months as we begin 2026… stay tuned for more on that.
The next chapter and conclusion were written almost 2 weeks later, on New Years Eve 2025. In a way it picks up where we left off, but I feel like it also continues on an entirely new note.
Take what resonates, leave the rest alone!
Chapter 2: December 31st 2025
And here we are… on the cusp of something great, of massive changes and destined new chapters that have been opening in our lives throughout 2025, almost as if we were sneaking a peak, sneaking a slight glimpse of the next chapter as the previous one closes.
2025 was a year of endings - as a universal 9 year, it brought to completion many themes, life lessons and chapters of our lives that have served their purpose… chapters that are ready to close and begin their death process. So many sudden changes, culminations and closures… some we knew were coming, anticipating in our gut, and some we never saw coming. With the rug getting ripped out from under us, doors slammed in our faces and hard truths now unable to turn away from, we all may be feeling a little raw, beaten up and weighed down as the year ends.
We may be looking back thinking to ourselves “wtf was that…” as we reflect on the year that has just passed. Many of us are saying “damn I needed that” or “I had no idea I was capable of making it through that” as we overcame insurmountable odds, faced off with our most difficult adversaries yet, and transcended the limitations of our tiny ego mind… really standing strong in the face of many fears that have moved into our hearts and taken up space where love once resided.
In 2024, many of us succumbed to the fears and commands of the small self, the ego, the limited self… we listened to the voice of fear over the voice of love, truth and encouragement… we hid ourselves away to try to numb the pain, and avoid further wounding. Then 2025 began with a bang and said, almost screaming… “ENOUGH! You cannot hide any longer, its time to come back into the light.”
And throughout 2025, that’s exactly what we did… we came out of hiding, came out of our self-imposed prisons, cages and caves, slowly but surely. One step at a time. Gradually at first, because fear was still trying to pull us back into the dark, the shadows, the cave, into hiding.
Fear has been screaming at us “its not safe!!!! What if your worst fear happens again?!?! Its better to stay here!!! You can’t have that!!! Who are YOU to think you can?!? Who do you think you are?!?!?”
I am Sara fucking Murray, thanks for asking. (lol “thanks” goes to the hypothetical fictional questions that mimic the voice of my inner saboteur, and now back to the article…)
The voice of fear may have been extra strong the past couple months… with so much coming up that is revealing our doubts, fears, deeply rooted insecurities and beliefs in our inadequacy and inability to have what we desire, we may feel pretty beaten down by the fear vibration and it’s intensity and ability to wreak havoc on our lives and internal psyche. But our hearts were always there, sometimes hidden in the background but never fully faltering… always softly, kindly, but assertively reminding us: “yes it may look scary, it may not be entirely “safe,” and yes scary things may happen, but you have what it takes. You cannot fuck up what is meant for you, and you cannot fully comprehend the amount of blessings that are destined for you and still coming your way. Look at all you have overcome thus far. Feel the fear, and do it anyway. Feel the fear, and remember you are immortal anyway.”
When death no longer scares us, we can do fucking anything. I saw this first hand throughout 2025, which was one big metaphorical death portal for myself personally and for many others walking similar paths. I saw how our fears of death (and living) hold us back and limit us. We hide in our little boxes and avoid life because we fear… what exactly? Have we ever asked ourselves, what is it that we really fear? What keeps us locked inside, in our comfortable rooms, day after day? Why do we avoid the outside world and new opportunities like they promise nothing but danger and pain? Who taught us to do this, and who told us to fear life to such a degree?
(Who taught us? … **cough cough mainstream news * cough cough turn off the fucking news * cough cough it is nothing but fear programming COUGH * we are not meant to know every horrifying negative event that goes on around planet earth everyday cough cough ** not to mention this is horrible for our nervous systems and it does us no good to be so “in the know” and “educated” on things we cannot control that are intended to just keep us in a low fear vibration cough COUGH ** oh sorry still getting over a cold!! ;) lol anyway… turn off the fucking news guys…)
Is it that we fear pain, making the wrong choice, being wrong, not being strong enough, not being chosen? What is behind our fear?
Death is what stands waiting behind this fear door for many of us… often death is what we “think” we fear most, but it isn’t even the soul, the real us, who fears death because the real us knows we are eternal, and we cannot really “die” from the perspective of the soul. When we have a multidimensional, spiritual or even psychedelic experience, many of us stop fearing death because we realize “we”, the real us or the soul self, never dies… our awareness never ceases, never ends, never dies… only our limited egoic perception can end or die.
This ego mind is the main center of human awareness at this time, and the ego is what many of us are solely identified with during our Earthly incarnation. But this is changing now, as more and more of us have transcendental, multidimensional, psychic and “trippy” experiences that shift our perspective of ourselves, of the true nature of reality, and what we are truly capable of in this realm. There are many scientific studies that are currently analyzing the benefits of psychedelic therapy for trauma victims, people with PTSD, chronic illness and terminal illnesses, studying psychedelic therapies and plant medicines like psilocybin mushrooms, ketamine, mdma, and many others, as these substances have created almost magical results when used for different purposes. When we peer beyond the veil, and glimpse that which is “beyond death” and beyond this realm, many of us are able to make peace with our fears of death and reclaim more sovereignty in our lives.
Death has been my greatest teacher throughout 2025, helping me realize how afraid I have been of dying since my near death experience, how afraid I am of others that I love dying, and how much these fears limit me. After my Grampie passed in November 2025, it felt like I could no longer fear death even if I tried… and especially after a year of looking death directly in the eye and telling it “no, not today”, I feel I am ready to fully LIVE now, as I have spent at least 4 years deeply afraid of dying, afraid of meeting my demise too early, and wrestling with my inner darkness and suicidal ideations. I have never wanted to die more than I had in 2025, and yet I have never felt more afraid of dying as well. Oh the paradox of life.
Seeing how “natural” death almost is through being present for my Grampie’s passing helped me recognize there is really nothing to fear in regards to physical death and the end of our lives… it is a totally organic, natural and spiritual process that cannot be controlled or messed with even if we tried.
We do not die just because of physical circumstances, random events and the dangers of chaos in the outside world… we die because our soul leaves our body, at exactly the right time… no sooner, and no later than our divine timing. This rings true at least for this situation and the things I am contemplating today… I don’t have too many words about tragic sudden death and murder at this time, although I do believe these are also chosen by the soul and are just “creative” ways we choose to leave this realm. My ego still doesn’t fully understand this, as I have grieved many sudden tragic deaths in my lifetime that I still cannot fully comprehend. But still, on some level of my being, I understand these deep truths about death, dying and life itself.
This “divine timing” element of death was witnessed in the most miraculous way with my Grampie’s passing a few months ago - around 3:30 pm on November 18th 2025, my entire immediate family on my mom’s side was gathered around my grandfather Larry’s hospital bed at Lahey Hospital in Peabody MA. I had ubered over there around 11 am after hospice called us all in because my Grampie had “taken a turn for the worst overnight and wasn’t going to make it much longer”... meaning he was going to pass away today, after a 2 year battle with multiple forms of cancer in his lungs and throat. My mom’s 3 siblings, my Grampie’s sister, my cousin Emma, 2 sisters, my Mimi and even my cousin Jeff (ironically my Grampie was not biggest fan of Jeff back in the day, lol) were all gathered around my Grampie’s bed talking and being there for him as he made his transition. He was on morphine already and was “asleep”, so we did not get to talk to him but that was okay.
At 3:35ish my mom and I decided to go down to the cafeteria to get something small to eat because my mom had not eaten yet that day. Around 3:30 I had begun feeling very overwhelmed with intense fear and grief, feeling very intense energy all at once. So when my mom asked me to leave the room for a moment, I agreed and knew I needed a break. I didn’t know what I was feeling, and it came out of nowhere… I am a psychic, so I do pick up on “vibes”, but I could not tell what it was I was picking up on… just a wave of strong intensity and overwhelming energy that made me a bit frightened, even making me feel a little sick and woozy.
My mom and I ventured down to the first floor of the hospital and found the cafeteria to be closed, so we went outside to smoke a cigarette. Once we got outside my sister Maryemma called and said we better get back upstairs now. We knew what that meant - Grampie, my mom’s dad, was about to pass away.
We ran up the stairs to the hospital room, and made it to the bed side EXACTLY when my Grampie took his last breaths. By the time we got to his side, he exhaled and never inhaled again, and we got to witness this last breath. It was surreal, and such divine timing… almost like his soul waited for us to be there to let go fully. We were afraid we were going to miss his transition, something my mom and I really wanted to be present for. But instead we arrived exactly in the right time, which was a huge moment and learning lesson for myself personally - you cannot fuck up divine timing. You cannot be late for that which is your destiny or that which is guided by Spirit, God or the Universe. Everything happens exactly when it is supposed to, no earlier and no later, and this is very much completely out of our control.
If my mom and I were 1 minute later, we would have missed the transition. And, the SECOND we left the room, like literally the moment we stepped in the elevator to go downstairs to the cafeteria, he started transitioning. My sister said right after we left his breathing reallllyyy slowed down, and they knew it was the last breaths, which is when she called us to get back upstairs. Such divine timing that my ego mind still doesn’t fully understand… did that intense, overwhelming feeling I felt right before we left the room have something to do with his transition? What was that energy I felt? It was almost like an intense pressure, like a push of energy all at once that was very overwhelming.
Through watching my Grampie transitioning all day, I could see how organic and energetic the process was… almost like taking a poop (bear with me for a second here as I explain this analogy). You cannot force the pooping process… the more you try to force it, the more clogged up you get. You have to just allow, breathe, let the process move through you almost… I know this is the strangest analogy in the entire world, but I hope it helps some of you guys understand this spiritual and very physical and human experience I had with my Grampie’s passing. You breathe and work with the process, letting it move through you as I said.
Anyway, this happening on November 18th 2025 was one that was very impactful and meaningful for me on my life path, one of the “highlights” of this year although it was painful, deep and mind altering to say the least. Although I learned so much through my Grampie’s death - it left me with so many questions, which will attract answers one day for sure, but until then I am still integrating and processing.
the above was written by my uncle and read by my mother at my Grampie’s funeral.
My Grampie’s death feels like a symbol for this entire year… all things eventually end, everything dies, all things must pass… and they do so exactly when they are supposed to, no earlier and no later. And you cannot be late for these endings, or force them to come early, just like you cannot force yourself to take a shit. (Thank you for bearing with my humor today, lol)
2025 stripped me to my core, and killed me in many metaphorical ways… but it all crashed and burned for a reason. The old me died this year, for sure… but the new me is being reborn in 2026, just wait and see ;)
Additionally, I have witnessed the divine timing of death in my own life through the fact that I was not meant to die on August 10th, 2017 in my motorcycle crash. This crash was the perfect circumstances for me to die, and my beloved boyfriend Sam actually did die from this crash… but not me, as my soul had other plans. No matter the physical circumstances or experiences I had, especially in my near death experience (NDE) in 2017, if I was not meant to die I was not going to. I was meant to return to Earth, because I had “work to do” as a spiritual being told me in my last coma dream following my medically induced coma I entered into after the crash, which happened to be on the 222nd day of the year, a powerful synchronicity. I also awakened from that coma during a powerful New Moon Solar Eclipse… divine timing as fuck. Even though I quite literally wanted to die at that time, or at least a part of me did because I had attempted suicide just 2 weeks before my NDE in 2017, it was not my time, so I survived and returned to my body in the hospital.
Death is not something we can control… it occurs in divine timing, exactly when it is supposed to, in alignment with divine will. Reflecting on these truths really helped ease my fears of death and dying as this pivotal year came to a close.
They say 2026 is “the year of the closing door”... and I am starting to see what this really means here and now, in real time. 2025 set the stage for these potent shifts, endings and potential new beginnings… 2026 will continue them, building on that which has died, fallen down and ended last year.
So much ended, died and was stirred up throughout 2025, and now it is time for the door to close finally, once and for all, on all those themes, relationships, circumstances and aspects of ourselves that have been culminating, completing and starting to end this past year.
Its a lot, this life shit… it’s really not easy being human and being deeply aware during these shifting times. But, there really is nowhere I would rather be, and no one I would rather be, than here, now, being fully and authentically myself.
I completely shedded the skin of my old identity in 2025, as the year of the snake prophesied and promised last year (2025 was the year of the snake in the Chinese zodiac). Now, as we enter the year of the horse and a universal 1 year in numerology, I am ready to stand strong on my own 2 feet. I am ready to begin again. I am ready to prove to myself how powerful I really am, and that all this suffering, pain and hardship was not for nothing.
And to start the year on a positive, and powerful note… I am committing to getting my very own apartment, the 1st place I have rented totally on my own, which really makes it feel like my 1st ever home… and I am solidifying this big life change at 1 pm, on 1/1, the 1st day of a universal 1 year… you cannot make that shit up. I locked in this apartment the evening of 12/19, the day of the New Moon in Sag… symbolizing a new chapter beginning, new adventures and just an overall fresh start. My intuition highlighted this day 12/19 months ago, so I knew it was going to be special… but I did not know it was going to be THIS special!! All the more reason to trust in the unknown, trust in divine timing and in the spontaneous events still making their way into our lives and realities.
I love when my significant life events line up with astrology, energy and this sense of divine timing… it makes me feel so much more supported and guided by forces beyond me, by Spirit and the universe as a whole.
Chapter 3: Conclusion - Enter 2026… The Universal 1 Year
So, as we close out this life changing, paradigm - shifting, and soul awakening year and begin to take our first steps in 2026, remember to move slowly and have patience with yourself and with the overall unfolding of life.
Cities are not built in a day.
Rome did not fall in a day.
Babies do not learn to walk overnight - they first learn to crawl, then stand, then they begin with a few steps, falling a few times until they are finally able to walk… and they still continue to fall a few more times as they catch their balance. Treat yourself as a toddler, as a freshly born human being learning to walk as you begin this new year and enter the unknown threshold beyond the changes of 2025.
Life as we’ve known it has ceased to be, but life itself never ends… it continues on, everlasting and infinite in nature, just changing in form and shifting its essence again and again before returning to wholeness and diving back into form again. The cycle continues, never ending yet always changing. This is the true nature of life, of existence, of the human experience… the spark behind it all never dies, never ends, but everything which is physical and animated into form must die, pass away, and change in form. All things must pass. Change is the only constant. Life is temporary, impermanent, but Spirit and soul are immortal, everlasting and infinite.
Let these truths be a reminder that you can never fail, as you can never really “die” - only your physical form changes, just as your mind does when things don’t go your way… when we “fail”, our perspectives shift and our mind opens just a little more. So failure is just a myth, and cannot really exist as long as we are learning, growing, evolving and continuing on. Just like our spirit continues on - so do our life endeavors. Even at death, we never stop living… we just come back into form, and start it all over again!
I am sending you all so much love - so much awaits us all in 2026, and this “year of the closing door” promises nothing but miracles, magic and massive manifestations… all in alignment and congruence with who we have worked so hard to become, and who we will continue to become as the year unfolds. Have grace with yourself and with others - you got this, WE got this!
Much Love and Namaste,
Sara Murray
ancientesoterica@gmail.com
